Please Have Mercy
“Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart. Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart” -Shawn Mendes
These lyrics kept going through my head as I tried to think about what mercy was to me.
My step dad passed a few months ago. When he was in the ICU dying from lung and throat cancer, no one in the family would go and visit him in the hospital. He was an alcoholic for as long as I knew him and since I was the oldest, I raised my brothers as much as my parents did. The nurse called me the night before he died, and told me his condition. I called my family, but no one would go to the hospital. My mother even had her friends tell me that I was hurting her by considering a visit. But, I went. I did not have much to say to him. He was no longer conscious and the room was empty. Not just empty of furniture and things, but of life and feeling. I sat in a chair next to him and held his hand for a bit. Then, I prayed. I prayed that God would have mercy on his soul. That God would see the good in him that no one else could and he would help him to repair the damage he created. Why did I do this?, because only God could show him the kind of mercy he needed. He died the next morning, alone.
God offers us his unyielding compassion and forgiveness, whether we deserve it or not. The part that I am always in awe of, is that we just have to ask. And, God knows EVERYTHING about us so as soon as we think it- he knows it is on our hearts. Lamentations 3:22 tells us that his mercies are new every morning. I can only dream of having the capacity to give compassion and forgiveness like that.
I want to serve God. I want to be more like Jesus. Can you imagine how much closer we would be to him if we gave mercy to those around us?
~Katie Van Gheem