Life in Jesus is Gloriously Easy
“Life in Jesus is gloriously easy. It has one responsibility; the responsibility of remaining in union. If you stay in union with Him, He’ll take care of everything else.” –Rufus Mosely
This season of my life is nothing I ever imagined I would be going through right now. 27 years with my partner has come to an end. 22 years of memories and life together is boxed up and organized to piles of: what to keep, what to give away, what to save.
This alone would hinder any extra activities that would seek my time and so to alleviate some stress I’ve disconnected from service at my church. I still go to church and can worship and can relate to every message. I just don’t have it in me to give of myself to serve the church. I barely have a social life but what is mandatory. I don’t even want to sit and discuss the current situation with but a few friends and family.
The only one right now who I can truly trust with my every emotion, pain, sadness, thoughts is Jesus. Journaling is too difficult. During this time I can’t read my bible, my prayers don’t come like they used to. My morning union might only consist of a quick read of a daily devotion or watching a 2 minute word from Joyce Meyers on Facebook. The comfort I have and the peace I find is to know God is with me. Even though my time with Him is limited and I’m distracted it doesn’t make Him less magnificent. God has shown up in huge ways from confirmation of my decisions, comfort when I need it and pure faith that everything will be ok as I walk in this valley. I know He waits and watches. He hears my cry when I can’t utter a word. My spirit stays connected even when it seems I am hidden away. I have faith my friends and family are carrying me and praying for me. I can feel those prayers. I can never hide from God and I am happy about that.
Psalm 139:7-10 “Where can I go from you spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.”
This verse sums it up for me. It really is not all doom and gloom every day. I delight in Him because I feel His presence. I know I am not alone. I know my most quiet time and “union” happens when I try to rest. During those times when I am able to turn off from all that I have to decide, plan, implement and navigate. Even if it’s only a few moments before I fall asleep exhausted. I recline in that deep place of rest. I do not fear of what tomorrow will bring I know He will be holding my hand. Jesus is there to guide me and I have faith that my story has no defeat. I know His patience is so much more than mine during this valley. It is amazing that I feel a deeper connection when He is all I have right now. So that connection in this valley does seem gloriously easy.